LOL im loving this girl.

Allison Harvard-Creepy Chan?

I've been watching ANTM ever since cycle one, and so i definitely had my eyes on Allison Harvard, a sweet girl from Louisiana which had eyes resembling a Blythe doll. I really wanted her to win, and I was really disappointed when Teyona won the competition. This sweet and a awfully absurd girl is really loved by people worldwide now, but only b-tards recognized her face ever since the first episode of the season's ANTM was aired-she was Creepy Chan. She was a girl who posted eerie and blood-chilling pictures of herself with big, a little abnormal eyes.In my opinion, she's not creepy at all. She's a really sweet girl with a cute personality. She's really special, because she's one of us. Definitely different from the rest. The font's red-she likes blood. gahh!

wanna know more about Creepy Chan?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkS6djz1y0Q&facebook.comNR=1

did i make it that easy to just walk in and out of my life?

i think im in love with you again.
i think im in love with you again.
i think im in love with you again.

you're all i think about every breath i take.
im in love with you again.
i tried to forget about you.
i tried to take it all away
everytime i run from you, all i do is pout.
why did this happen to us?
why did you allow us to be so distant,
when we were once 2 become 1?
i heard that you changed,
changed back into the you that i fell in love with 2 years ago.
hardworking, comitted, and determined.
it hurt me to see you going out with other people,
i gave up. as time went by,
i slowly noticed.
you gave up too.
goodbye my almost lover,
goodbye my hopeless dreams.
cant you just let me be?

green-the colour you wore the day you made me so sure that you were the one for me.
orange-the colour I wore the day you decided to break my heart 161 days, 13910400 seconds, 231840 minutes, 3864 hours, and 23 weeks later.

today-im 100% sure.
im still in love with you.

when the world is going through a pretty tough time..

"when the world is going through a pretty tough time and we're looking for a bit of hope and inspiration, along came Susan Boyle to provide it." -Piers Morgan

Susan Boyle has actually brought me, my friends, and my family a lot of hope and inspiration. i clearly remember the night Susan Boyle was on the news; my family gathered around the dining room watching and my mommy couldn't get enough of Susan's singing. she quickly asked me to find the clip of her singing I Dreamed a Dream on Youtube and we watched it countless times, each time telling another family member to join in to enjoy this wonderful hidden talent being discovered by millions around the world. Susan Boyle is definitely a very inspirational woman, and I really hope she has a chance to perform in front of someone her country really respects-the Queen.

there's always something or someone who routes to ruin you.

i was starting to enjoy the sunny hot summer weather outside, and i was finally ready to pull out my jean shorts-but-now that i look outside, the sky is about to cry. there's gonna be at least 10mm of rain tonight. rainy weather naturally makes me really depressed...i only like to sleep in the nasty weather but if i need to go outside when its a drout, oh no. no thank you! today was a tiring day. exams are getting close, and everyone is stressed. this morning i had my piano test for my keyboard class. i finally performed the moonlight sonata 3rd movement at the beginning of lunch. it felt like any second i was playing, my heart was beating a million beats per second and my hands were aching and pleading to stop. i managed to finish playing the whole piece in less than 8 minutes and i was really proud of myself that i have completed such a challenging piece with such velocity and technical skill. in 3rd period today, we had a work period to work on our project. therefore i was able to escape from the creepy guy. i was also attempting to text my friend during the class, but i made it really obvious and didnt even bother to set the phone to SILENT. after school, i went to my buddy irene's apartment to work on our project with my other friend jess. we ate a 4 course meal. like..actually. we ate sushi, pizza, cupcakes, and "tofu fa" (a traditional chinese dessert served with syrup made from tofu). we fooled around, didnt get much work done. i was really excited for youtube and we watched a million britains got talent vids. im really routing for diversity/susanboyle/juliansmith-those are definitely my faves. im really sleepy and the grey sky's just encouraging to take a short nap before watching dramas and starting some summatives for school. so tired. wishing all of you guys a happy life. don't let the terrible weather ruin you! for some reason my attached image reminds me of Twilight. yes? no?

creepy guy beside me 3rd period

yay.
this is going to be my first non-dream post!
its about something i'm really worried about.
well..someone!
we sit in pairs in one of my classes and 2 of my friends decided to sit together
therefore, i sat alone at the farthest back of the room alone.
there was this guy who never talks to anyone and just whispers when the teacher forces him to talk. he sat to my right..a couple metres away.
one day, he suddenly sat in the empty seat next to me, and i thought "oh its ok..maybe he just can't see the board clearly." but then his friend came back from vacation and he still remained sitting beside me.
fine fine.
whatever.
so here's the scary part.
one day, me and my friend were talking (we had a supply teacher that day) and my friend suddenly looked scared and told me in chinese "whatever you do, DONT look at the person beside you."
so i thought to myself..fine..maybe hes like..changing or something.
hahaha =P i even sniffed once even though my sense of smell is REALLY BAD
then around 2 minutes later my friend said it was okay to look. the wait has made me so afraid of what he was doing that i didnt look at him after. i asked my friend what was going on.
and turns out his awkward habits and quiet self was just a veil, uncovering a very nasty monster on the inside.
i'm now afraid to go to my 3rd period classes.
if i change seats, my friend would be mentally disrupted by this scary guy since they were eye-to-eye and my friend saw what was happening.
if i sit beside him, im threatening my own existence and harming myself.
i want to run away..
run away
from this scary scary world.
a world where differences are unavoidable, a world where the right can be wronged. eternally.

if i can only alter ones dreams to make them absolutely perfect..

how can something really perfect turn into something that haunts them in their dreams?
why does it seem as if something's always bothering us even if we try to forget the complicated things that happen to us in our lives?
why do dreams haunt us?
when will our minds give us a break?

since i've been getting less than 5 hours of sleep every night for the past month (essays, projects, television), ive been too tired to even dream. instead, my mommy's been getting the worst of dreams.
my mommy's really well-known among her friends and my relatives to dream on a regular basis and end up screaming (high pitched, long scream!) in the middle of the night and sleeping again. i've slowly gotten accustomed to the fact that she screams in her dreams, because her dreams are always about a treasure being discovered by others or about something she lost. the dream she had last night was really different, though. she wasn't able to fall back asleep yesterday after this one. here it is!

-there was a man in her dream who had skin of a mannequin. he said "this is what being burned looks like.."
slowly, half of his face was being melted away and he was in a pudding-like form on the floor.
my mom screamed, but wasn't able to sleep again.

if i had that dream, i'd be even more terrified than my mommy. why do dreams like these haunt us? my mommy read the newspaper before sleeping, but she said she's never watched any movie or read any story about the one in her dream. i find the dream really eerie in a sense that nobody would ever think of something like it.

wouldn't it be perfect if we could alter our dreams?
sometimes when im half awake and half awake, i'm able to change my dreams by adding characters
when i was younger, i didnt dream often. even if i did, i've obviously already forgotten about it the next morning.

i hope these dreams dont haunt mommy anymore
i hope the dream maker allows my whole family to sleep safe and soundly every night.